WHATS WRONG WITH ME.......IM OFFICIALLY THE WORST MALE BEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD....I WILL GET BETTER THOUGH....

HONESTLY ME CALLING YOU I DON'T THINK WOULD MEAN ANYTHING SO I FIGURE I PUT MY TRUTH OUT FOR THE WORLD TO SEE...I KNOW U THE READER IS LIKE WHAT THE F AM I TALKING ABOUT?? WELL THE PROBLEM IS FOR MOST OF MY LIFE I WAS GOING THROUGH HELL...THEN ONE DAY ILL NEVER FORGET WHEN I MET HER..I WAS WORKING AT APPLEBEES AT THE TIME...BACK WHEN I WOULD WORK TWELVE HOUR SHIFTS JUST TOO GO BUY CLOTHES TO IMPRESS PEOPLE THAT REALLY DIDN'T MATTER..LOL...SO I'M RUNNING AROUND JUST IN MY ZONE SINGING MELODIES TO MYSELF AS I WENT ABOUT SERVING MY GUESTS...AND SOMEONE CALLED ME OVER.ITS FUNNY CAUSE I CAN BE EXTREMELY OUTGOING THEN BE VERY SHY...NOW WOMEN NOWADAYS DON'T USUALLY CALL DUDES..ITS USUALLY US WHISTLING OR DOING WHATEVER ACTION WE HAVE TO DO TO GET A FEMALES ATTENTION...SO I GO OVER TO THE TABLE SWEATING AND SMELLING LIKE ALL TYPES OF DISHES...AND I REMEMBER YOU HAD A COOL CONFIDENCE ABOUT AND YOU ALWAYS CHEESING..LOL..NICOLE YOU HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME THROUGH MY PHASE OF ME LOSING MYSELF TO BEING THE ONE THAT WOULD TALK TO ME ON THE PHONE FOR HOURS JUST TO LIFT MY SPIRITS UP....I KNOW WE HAVE ALWAYS HAD THE PROBLEM OF ME COMMUNICATING AND I'M TERRIBLE AT IT...I ADMIT IT...ITS LIKE I BE SO IN MY THOUGHTS AS FAR AS CATCHING THESE DREAMS THAT I PUSH PEOPLE AWAY NOT WITH THE INTENT TOO...I LOVE THE FACT YOU JUST SHOWED U CARED AND IT WASN'T WITH ULTERIOR MOTIVES..HAVING U AS A BEST FRIEND MEANS THE WORLD TO ME BECAUSE U NOT ONLY HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT A TRUE MAN IS BUT YOU COOL AND A VERY BEAUTIFUL PERSON...I KNOW I HAVE NOT BEEN THE BEST OR NEAR GOOD COMMUNICATOR OR FRIEND BUT U MUST KNOW THAT U GOT A WINNER WITH ME..NOT TO MANY PEOPLE'S OPINIONS MATTER TO ME BUT YOURS DOES....AND I'M UPSET BECAUSE THE LEAST I COULD OF DID WAS CALL U.... I COULD OF BORROWED MY BOYS PHONE SINCE U KNOW MY PHONE BE ACTING UP AND DIDN'T DO THAT AND I DIDN'T WHY BECAUSE OF MUSIC...I WILL NEVER LIE TO U U KNOW THAT AND I KNOW THIS DAY WAS IMPORTANT TO U....AND IF YOUR UPSET WITH ME I UNDERSTAND...YOU KNOW IN YOUR HEART WHAT IT IS OTHERS MAY NOT UNDERSTAND AND I DON'T GIVE FUCK....HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE.....ITS SO MUCH MORE TO SAY......I GOT U ON THAT MUSTANG 2....NOW THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS..AS A MAN I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT WHEN I'M WRONG....IF IT WASN'T FOR YOUR BELIEF IN ME I WOULD OF NEVER FOUND MY TRUTH.....SO WITH THAT BEING SAID FORGIVE ME NICOLE......