THE STARTING POINT

Wow I'm so amazed right now i don't even know how to feel, or better yet if what I'm feeling is real. It seems i have found MYSELF.. to some that may be an average statement but in this mirage that I've called life finding myself has been that hardest issue that i have had to face. I was told to start writing again which is my passion to help me get more in tuned with myself, See the more i write about my Multiple Personalities and how they have affected my life the more I'm made aware of my actions so even when my personalities change ill still be able to write down what i was going through at that time due to me making it a repetitive habit. Its kinda funny cause I've always dreamed about what it would feel like to experience that feeling. That feeling of knowing u can look at yourself and be proud of the changes that are happening in your life at that moment, or better yet having clarity or mental and emotional freedom. A freedom where U feel in tuned with what u feel what u want where u see yourself in life how u plan to get there and having the strength look back on all your mistakes, flaws, failures and weaknesses. See I've lived a life of lies, I'm not sure if any of ya suffer from this feeling of anxiety whenever u meet new people. Its like u sorta feel inside that u should become whatever they wish u just to fit in, or better yet to feel accepted still struggling to find yourself. I've reached the point in my life where I'm no longer afraid to be real with MYSELF all my selves. All my life i have tried to please people even at the lost of my own identity even sometimes going against how I truly would feel, i guess I'm no longer afraid to say i was a coward, but they say in order to conquer something u must have not only the will but the patience to come face to face with the issues. Honestly U get tired of not being U. Because of the personalities that I suffer with I've always had to hide behind masks,masks that would change depending on the person place or situation, or better yet i was accepting these personalities as truths instead of problems that I could overcome. When dealing with a Roller coaster ride such as what I've had to deal with it took a situation that hurt everyone AND ME ESPECIALLY to make me realize I NEEDED HELP or better yet i didn't want to keep living life halfway. See I'm sitting right now listening to Telepopmusik "Don't look Back" and this song is just opening up my emotions not to mention the fact that I'm smoking some Kush as well, Honestly my life has been HELL So many people have said Steeve "we don't really know u" and i would say that saddest thing about hearing that is realizing u didn't know neither. Ive come to realize people are always going to have opinions on who u should be what u should say and who u really are but till they have walked a mile well in my case i say a a couple blocks who are they to judge.

STEEVE SAM "LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST"