WHAT I USED TO WORRY ABOUT................REVISITING MY PAST THOUGHTS...

IS IT BECAUSE AFTER WORKING SO HARD TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING AND SEEING IT SLIP THROUGH
YOUR FINGERS YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'VE FAILED NOT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR BUT YOURSELF....
DEEP INSIDE-DEEP INSIDE WHERE ONLY YOU AND GOD SIT DOWN AND ENJOY LIFE-CHANGING CONVERSATION...
CHANGE HAPPENS BUT YOU LEARN TO ACCEPT CHANGE...CHANGE IS WHAT MAKES LIFE THE JOURNEY THAT IT IS, BUT FOR ME PERSONALLY CHANGE COMES WHEN LEAST EXPECTED SO GRADUALLY U START TO LEARN TO LOVE CERTAIN PEOPLE WITH YOUR ALL WHILE YOUR STILL ABLE..
ESPECIALLY WHEN U LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE WOMEN LOOK FOR ALL THINGS MATERIAL WHEN WHAT THEY REALLY NEED IS INVISIBLE..THEY DO COME AND GO SO APPRECIATION GROWS FOR THE ONE THAT LIKE YOU FOR YOU...
STILL I WORRY....CAUSE THROUGH FAILURES AND DISAPPOINTMENT YOU BECOME MAD AT THE WORLD BUT AS U SIT BACK U REALIZE THE WORLD DOESN'T STOP FOR U AND SOME PEOPLES OBSTACLES ARE SO MUCH GREATER THAN YOURS BUT YOU ALSO REALIZE THROUGH TRIAL AND ERROR THAT THROUGH FAILURE U GAIN INSIGHT AND KNOWLEDGE..
SO WHY DO I WORRY SO MUCH...
I WORRY ABOUT MY FUTURE...
I WORRY ABOUT LIMITATIONS I PUT ON MYSELF THAT KEEP ME AT A STANDSTILL SOMETIMES AND HOW TO BREAK THEM...
I WORRY ABOUT WHAT IT IS THAT I SEE IN MYSELF AND IF I'M A BE ABLE TO FULLY EMBRACE WHO I AM...
SEE I STOPPED WORRYING ABOUT TRYING TO LIVE UP TO OTHER PEOPLE'S EXPECTATIONS OF ME AND COMPARED TO THEM THE EXPECTATIONS I SET FOR MYSELF ARE EVEN GREATER....
I WORRY ABOUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE HIGHER POWER...
LOVE I DON'T WORRY ABOUT NO MORE CAUSE NO ONE IS REALLY SINGLE CAUSE WE ALL HAVE A BETTER HALF WAITING FOR US WE JUST HAVE TO PREPARE OURSELVES FOR IT..
I WORRY ABOUT IF I'M GOOD ENOUGH AND IF I AM DESERVING OF YOU..
I WORRY ABOUT HOW TO CONSTANTLY SHOW SOMEONE YOU CARE WITHOUT BEING ABLE TO PHYSICALLY TOUCH THEM OR SEE THEM, NOT BEING ABLE TO KISS THERE SOFT LIPS OR GET TO SEE THAT PERSON SMILE...
IT IS SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND EMOTIONS SOMETIMES THAT HAVE NO REAL EXPLANATION BUT JUST IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE A PART OF ME...
I WORRY ABOUT IF I SHOULD EMBRACE THE WAY I FEEL AND WHAT IF YOU DO NOT FEEL THE SAME WAY I FEEL...
I WORRY ABOUT IF I'M NOT BEING CARING, FUNNY, CHARMING, REAL, OR ME ENOUGH AND PEOPLE THINK ITS EASY BEING ME...
I WORRY ABOUT FALLING FOR ANOTHER...
I WORRY ABOUT SOMETHING SO LITTLE AS NOT HEARING YOUR VOICE AND HOW IT AFFECTS ME..
DAMN I SOUND CORNY RIGHT NOW..
SOMETIMES I WORRY IF I'M ANNOYING YOU OF I CALL TO U TOO MUCH OR NOT ENOUGH..
I WORRY ABOUT MY SUCCESS, WHICH CAN ONLY BE DETERMINED BY ME...
I WORRY ABOUT FAMILY AND FRIENDS...
I WORRY ABOUT THE WHYS AND WONT'S THEN I WORRY SOME MORE AND THEY SAY CONFIDENT PEOPLE DON'T WORRY..
I EVEN WORRY ABOUT YOU AND ALL THE ISSUES THAT YOU ARE DEALING WITH WITHIN' YOURSELF...
I WORRY SO MUCH I EVEN HAVE THE SPACE TO WORRY ABOUT YOU..
I WORRY SO MUCH MY PEN IS RUNNING OUTTA INK AS I WAS WRITING THIS ON PAPER...
HOWEVER I NOTICED MY WORRIES MAKE ME STRONGER..
WITH WORRIED I AM ABLE TO SEE THE TRUTHS AND TO CHANGE THE LIES...
I'M ABLE TO SEE THE STRENGTH'S AND WEAKNESSES AND SEE THAT THROUGH MY WORRIES A STRONG HAITIAN WORLDLY MAN I AM BEING MADE INTO...
THROUGH WORRY I AM GIVEN THE POWER TO INVESTIGATE AND CHANGE WHAT I CAN AND THE POWER TO STAND STRONG THROUGH WHAT REMAINS THE SAME..
I SHARE THIS WITH YOU NOT BECAUSE I HAD TOO BUT BECAUSE I WANT 2..
DAMN I WORRIED MYSELF OUTTA THINGS TO SAY....