RUNNING OUTTA TIME.....SO MUCH WORK TO BE DONE

For the past couple days my heart has been hurting again...Its a never ending story..It's to the point I've learned to even enjoy the pain...I've run outta tears and talking about it either gets me the whole OH be a man speech which by the way my body doesn't want to hear when feeling like I'm getting stabbed in the stomach over and over ...or the feeling like a cripple because sometimes I just have to lay there away from every one...because I simply can't do nothing...I meditate on daily basis because even when dealing with this I refuse to let this affect My purpose...Its funny because this pain serves as a constant reminder to not take a second for granted and I truly understand the meaning Now...So many experiences Left to discover and I know most people will tell me Steeve u can't do this or you shouldn't be doing this cause of your Heart...Well I don't care...I wake up everyday with my family in mind...not just my immediate family but the people that have come to grow and love me as family...I now wake up with an understanding of who i am a strong sense of who i am where i see myself and the sacrifices i will have to make to capture all these dream that i mold everyday into reality everyday by just my knowing that everyday is a blessing so I learn- love- work- lead-teach- fail-create-follow my heart and enjoy life HARD....WHY NOT...I just have a feeling even on my death bed I will be smiling