NICE GUYS DO FINISH LAST

IS BEING GENUINE HUMBLE AND NICE A GOOD THING IN TODAYS SOCIETY WHERE PEOPLE WILL DO ANYTHING TO REACH SUCCESS OR ATTAIN MONEY EVEN IF ITS SHITTING ON THE NEXT PERSON.....WHEN DO U STOP CARING...IS IT PRIDEFUL OR EGOTISTICAL TO NOT WANT TO GET HURT OR TAKEN FOR GRANTED OR GET YOUR IDEAS USED UP BY OTHER PEOPLE JUST FOR THEIR BENEFIT...I SIT BACK AND OBSERVE AND BE BAFFLED LIKE WOW...FOR ME IT JUST GETS A POINT WHERE ALL MY LIFE I'VE BEEN HELPING PEOPLE AND YES PEOPLE HAVE HELPED ME ALOT AND TO ALL THOSE THAT HELPED ME FROM THE HEART I KNOW EXACTLY WHO U ARE AND I WILL NEVER FORGET AND I WILL RETURN THE BLESSING TEN TIMES OVER... BUT THE PART THAT SUCKS IN ALL THIS IS REALIZING JUST CAUSE YOUR HELPING SOMEONE WITH NO ULTERIOR MOTIVES DONT MEAN ITS THE SAME ON THE FLIP SIDE.....I SWEAR IF I WASNT GREAT AT MUSIC MOST PEOPLE WOULDN'T EVER HELP ME...ITS A LINE OF PEOPLE WAITING FOR MY SUCESS SO THEY CAN PLAY IN THE FRUITS OF MY HARD WORK...YOU KNOW WHO CARE'S WHEN U HAVE SOMETHING THAT MATTERS 2 U AND U ALWAYS SEEM TO BE BY YOURSELF WHEN ITS TIME TO MAKE MOVES....A GIFT AND A CURSE I UNDERSTAND IT NOW...I KNOW ONE DAY ILL BE AT PEACE...I TRY MY BEST EVERYDAY TO HELP AND INSPIRE PEOPLE EVERYDAY WITH NOTHING....NOT FOLLOWING THE RULES OF THIS MATRIX OPENED UP MY EYES TO THE REAL....PEOPLE WOULD NEVER KNOW UNLESS I TELL THEM WHAT I GO THRU NOT THAT ANY OF WHAT I GO THRU IS THE WORSE..... ITS PEOPLE OUT THEIR GOING THRU WAY MORE DIFFICULT SITUATIONS BUT WHEN I WAKE UP AND MY HEART IS LIKE YO MY DUDE I CANT DO THIS NO MORE AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THAT..IT FUCKS WITH YOUR REALITY WHEN PEOPLE ARE ABLE TO PUT THINGS OFF BUT I CANT BECAUSE MY HEART WONT ALLOW ME 2 I CAN DROP DEAD AT ANY MOMENT...I KNOW THAT LIFE ISNT PROMISED DONT GET ME WRONG BUT PHYSICALLY I CANT DO THIS ANY MORE... PEOPLE YA WON YOU GUYS SUCCEEDED... NOTHING I DO IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH...SO IM REMOVING MYSELF FROM THE EQUATION COMPLETELY..THAT'S HOW I FEEL AT THIS EXACT MOMENT