KARMA...The 1 thing No One Escapes....

You know u LOVE someone when even after they've been gone for about a year and some change you refuse to delete there screen name even though u know they will probably never make an attempt to say Hi. Its almost as if u feel by deleting there screen name you'll lose that last strand of connectivity that u have with that person but u know they say when u LOVE something let it go if it comes back then its yours but u know what if u do or don't come back i realize I will forever LOVE u and there is nothing wrong with that. KARMA'S A BITCH but u know what i realized as i work towards recovering from my mistakes, and failures and truly work towards being open and honest about myself to my myself and the opposite sex Karma isn't that bad. U only fail when u give up that's the only way that u can lose in life no matter what it is, until u die u always can change no matter what the world has to say and i know because even after tainting and hurting something that was so meant for me, i refuse to give up on making myself better so that in the future when u do see me even if we are not together u will know in your heart that i worked hard to become that man that u always saw in me in the first place and i know when that happens u wont even have to question if i changed, u will be able to see it and feel it in your bones.See it would be so easy to blame YOU or point out YOUR flaws but why I'M THE REASON YOUR NOT HERE..... Would it change anything at this point NO, plus when it comes down to it how selfish would that be of me to hold on when maybe you've moved on and your living your life u feel me, would it be fair to the woman that can take me to a whole new level in life and LOVE Shit i might F around and miss out on Love again..... I thought about something last night say for example.. I meet a good caring woman and I break her heart what happens when she meets the next guy after me, he may be a genuine guy then because of what i did she fucks him over u see the cycle.... Now in my mind it seems like we are all fucking each other over and over >>>>> that's why societies views on LOVE and relationships is fucked up. Now don't get me wrong I'm no expert who is at the end of the day its funny because so many people go to counseling but if u were to look into the relationship of the people that are doing the counseling most of the time there relationships are no better maybe even worse. They are so busy worrying about someone else's problems that they never get to fix there own. I've learned to LOVE ME and that why our relationship didn't work as hard as we tried we couldn't get it together i didn't LOVE myself... So How could I truly ever have LOVED u the way that u wanted. They say everything starts with a thought then it get spoken into life. How many times have u heard oh he's a Dog, or oh she's a hoe if u live in that reality then that's what your going to encounter. We are all Magnets and we naturally over time attract what we are if u are truly a good person no matter how much BS u go through eventually life turns around and I say that because that is my reality....

If i can use my experiences to help someone find or actually learn how to appreciate love or something great when they have it then hopefully me being completely honest will do that!!!!