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“SOMEONE TOLD ME MY DREAMS ARE 2 BIG I TOLD THEM THAT THERE MIND WAS 2 SMALL”


Its 10:33 am It’s the day after Halloween. I feel blessed right now so many innocent people died these past few days in NEWARK NJ, ladies and gentlemen I’m still alive, and all my loved ones so I think the man upstairs for that. Just a quick note to people that actually study punctuation I do not feel like worrying about that right now I just want to get my thoughts out. Most of u people out there may not know me and some of u have heard either my music know me personally so I might as well let u in on this, for some saying that u have multiple personalities is like a way of promoting or garnering attention musically this is me just letting my feeling out before I do something I regret ,it gets like that sometimes so just for u guys I’m not here to promote for me this is an actual reality. Why am I taking the time to write this honestly writing is my way of just releasing just all my frustrations, MOST PEOPLE THAT KNOW ME WOULD LOOK AT ME AND SAY I'M PRETTY DOWN TO EARTH, A VERY POSITIVE PERSON, I LOVE TO LAUGH, AND I LOVE MUSIC WITH EVERY CELL IN MY BODY, AND YES I WOULD AGREE, but some may not know that I suffer from having multiple personalities ANO NO they don’t have names having multiple personalities is like not having any real control of life or the things that u do only thing is that u still have that part of u that is more dominant than the other ones and that’s actually the real u, meaning the person that the world deals with on a daily basis…so when your personalities change it’s like watching yourself in real time here’s a better example It’s like when u go to the movies when u watch a movie say for example my personality would be whatever is playing on the screen at that moment and the more dominant personality which is the one that is writing this right now would be the person that is watching the movie and whenever I regain control I would go from the person watching what’s going on onscreen to the person that jumped into the screen and is now a star. TO all the people that I’ve ever Hurt because of this I swear that I will work hard to show whoever it may be that I am actually a very good, and honest person if I owe u money I’m working hard to pay it all back to all the ladies I’ve hurt, or lied to I’m genuinely sorry don’t let your hearts harden to the point you miss your actual counterpart, don’t let another person suffer for my faults that’s very selfish ladies, that’s why so many sons and daughters grow up fatherless, like me. DON’T U EVER WISH THAT U COULD GO BACK IN TIME KNOWING things would have been different if I was ME now BACK THEN I write this right now because I get tired of fighting SOMETIMES….. for some people when I tell them I have this PERSONALITY problem, they take it as a joke they laugh they say man nothing’s wrong with u not realizing that sometimes even the strongest of people have At LEAST 1 problem that they STRUGGLE dealing with IT JUST SO HAPPENS SOME PEOPLE’S STRUGGLES ARENT AS SIMPLE AS OTHERS, so I’m feeling like what’s the point of keeping things in when u end up exploding or hurting yourself, or someone else even more so that’s why I had to write this. So many people deal with pain and have no outlet to release it cause we as people are sometimes so selfish or afraid of other people that people with problems are often laughed at or looked down upon I know whoever knows me personally are scratching their heads right now like wow I never knew but ya’ll would all agree and say Steeve Sam Is crazy but u can’t help but love him. I’m not that great at opening up and I’m great at masking my feelings I’ve been dealing with this for years its gotten better as a whole lot but honestly Maybe that’s why so many get lost in pretending then being who they really are for acceptance. Me all I’ve wanted was to be was the best at this music shit, I just want to be successful physically, mentally, spiritually, and yes emotionally but because of this issue that I deal with I’ve been through hell and back lost friends lost relationships experienced an extreme form of homelessness for a period of time, living from house to house, to having no faith or belief in myself that’s what was going on to the insiders to the outsiders my personalities made every thing seem ok “by the way thank u 2 all the people that believed in me and helped me when I was down I got u I promise” went to jail “nothing 2 crazy” to trying to kill myself and lying to people for over stupid stuff because half the time I honestly wouldn’t remember doing certain things or couldn’t control my actions, “Would u believe someone if they told u they didn’t do something and really looked like they meant it but u knew they were the only person around” R U STARTING TO UNDERSTAND YET… to being deported to Haiti for 2 years losing 2 years of my life but gaining knowledge on my culture and what struggle really is I got deported by my own “mother” for her boyfriend “her boyfriend” is he still around NO but I got my little Brother out of that so from a negative came a positive “love u little bro” the worse part of it is that I didn’t even finish high school and that kills me the most cause sometimes u just feel stuck like life is moving but your just frozen in the same spot don’t get me wrong musically I’m growing to immense heights I got a strong team around me and we the future of this music biz remember I said that, but I feel like mentally I want to know more and Knowledge is power, well I can’t get too upset I’m highly intelligent and I’m going to be very successful see what I realized is that even with these problems I still chose to stop make excuses and fucking work and fight with myself every second to transform myself to the MAN I WANT TO BE AND AM still got a bit to go but I’m turning out pretty nice lol!!!! I could of went the negative route but chose to move forward even when falling and getting tripped up and decided even through this fucking struggle with myself failure’s not an option and never will be, so In choosing to do what I felt I loved and was good at t I met so many people that slowly fell in love with me the real me and in turn my personality changes slowed down to the point I thought it was gone, and no I didn’t drop out of school I got locked up the day of my Finals I had a 4.0 gpa, even if I had got just D’s I would’ve had my diploma DAMN!!!!!!!!! u feel me and when my situations as far and bills and figuring out how to have even better control of my life ill go back to school and get a degree in Sociology I WANT TO HELP KIDS and what’s dope about that is through music I could do flyer stuff for the kids but hey ill figure it out along the way I guess but anyways even through all this bullshit I still feel positive and live life with my head held high IM from HAITI where life is the complete opposite of AMERICA’S so for every one that abuse their blessings, whatever it may be it may be music, Art, fashion, dealing with people whatever it may be if I could replace one of u with someone that would be thankful for what they have I would NO offense just honesty!!!!!!! I know u wondering where this honesty writing stemmed from it’s actually from a situation that happened at my job yesterday and I honestly I HAD LOST IT!!!!!!!!! I WANTED TO CRY YELL RUN AND FIGHT ALL AT THE SAME TIME AND I STARTED BLACKING OUT ALL MY PERSONALITIES WERE JUST CHANGING BACK AND FORTH IN A MATTER OF MINUTES AND IT SCARED THE SHIT OUTTA ME I NEVER WANT TO EXPERIENCE THAT NO MORE CAUSE I WAS DOING GOOD CONTROLLING MY LIFE AND U KNOW WHAT THAT COMES FROM ME HOLDING THINGS IN AND NOT BEING HONEST WITH MYSELF AND FALLING IN THE TRAP OF LIVING IN FEAR OF PEOPLE AND THERE OPINIONS AND WHAT THEY THINK OR WHAT THEY WANT, NOT REALIZING THEY ARE NO BETTER THAN U…. THAT’S WHAT 9-5’S ARE DESIGNED FOR THATS HOW I FEEL TO KEEP U BOXED IN “If u ever get a chance watch the show WEEDS and listen to the song and more importantly the words that plays as the show starts SO NOW THERE’S MORE OF A HUNGER IN ME TO SUCCEED AND LIVE THE LIFE THAT I WANT SO FROM THIS DAY AND THIS IS FOR ALL THE PEOPLE THAT UNDERSTAND ME, OR HAVE FELT THE WAY IM FEELING AT SOME POINT IN THERE LIVES I WANT U TOO WRITE THIS DOWN AND SAY IT EVERYDAY!!! “FROM THIS DAY FORWARD IM GOING TO GO FULL SPEED TO ACHIEVE MY DREAMS WHATEVER POSITIVE SACRIFICES I HAVE TO MAKE TO REACH WHERE I SEE MYSELF I WILL” “I SAY POSITIVE SACRIFICES CAUSE BEING BAD IS SO EASY AINT IT” TOO MANY PEOPLE LIVE LIFE HALFWAY TOO MANY PEOPLE STILL CONSIDER SKIN COLOR AS US BEING DIFFERENT, NOT REALIZING WE ARE ALL ONE. . One thing I want to say to all the future leaders or business owners or just people that others will look up too or look to for guidance when making decisions make sure they are based on just honesty and facts not based off of personal opinion or pride.

FEEL FREE TO WRITE BACK THANK U FOR ALLOWING ME TO SHARE MY LIFE WITH U MAYBE IT CAN BE INSPIRING TO U!!

LETS BE HONEST IN 09 TO MANY PEOPLE PRETEND INSTEAD OF BEING WHO THEY REALLY ARE!!!!