ON A MISSION.....THEY SAY YOU CANT HELP SOMEONE UNLESS YOU HELP YOURSELF IS THAT REALLY TRUE....

I REALIZED TODAY THAT PEOPLE DON'T HAVE TO CARE THE WAY I CARE BECAUSE I'M ME...EVERY THING IN LIFE IS A CHOICE...SOME CHOICES WE GET TO DECIDE AND MOST WE DON'T..I USED TO FIND MYSELF GETTING UPSET THAT PEOPLE WOULDN'T WORK AS HARD FOR ME AS I WOULD FOR THEM...I DON'T BELIEVE IN THE SAYING THAT U HAVE TO HELP YOURSELF FIRST BEFORE U HELP SOMEONE ELSE U KNOW WHY BECAUSE SOMETIMES OPPORTUNITIES COME WHEN U LEAST EXPECT AND JUST CAUSE IT MAY NOT BE SOMETHING U CAN DIRECTLY GAIN SOMETHING FROM DOES NOT MEAN U KEEP THAT TO YOUR SELF. YOU SHOULD SHARE IT OR PASS IT ON TO SOMEONE THAT WILL BE ABLE TO BE CHANGED FROM IT..MOST PEOPLE WONT DO SOMETHING JUST TO DO IT. PEOPLE ALWAYS HAVE ULTERIOR MOTIVES..ITS SO SAD... SO WITH THAT BEING SAID NO LONGER WILL I LET PEOPLE'S INSECURITIES MAKE ME INSECURE OR MAKE ME CHANGE WHO I AM JUST TO PROVE A POINT TO SOMEONE...I HAVE GIVEN EVERYTHING THAT I CAN RIGHT NOW TO HELP MY COUNTRY...HOW DO I LOOK IN THE FACE OF MY DEAD FAMILY MEMBERS..I CAN'T SO THEY WILL SHINE THROUGH ME AS GOD DOES...ITS FUNNY HOW PEOPLE SEEM TO THINK THE ONLY WAY U CAN HELP SOMEONE IS THROUGH MONEY OR MATERIALS...PEOPLE FOCUS SO MUCH ON THE OUTSIDE THAT WHEN IT'S TIME TO SIT AND FACE THEMSELVES ON THE INSIDE THEY CAN'T...THIS GIFT OF MUSIC THAT I HAVE IS THE ONLY THING LEFT TO ENHANCE SO THAT WHEN PEOPLE LOOK AT HAITI THEY GET TO HEAR ABOUT MY PERSPECTIVE ALSO...GOT NEW MUSIC TO MAKE...AND MORE PEOPLES LIVES TO CHANGE...I LOST MY FAMILY DUE TO THIS AND ITS STILL FAMILY I HAVE TO GO GET..EVEN IF I GO TO HAITI RIGHT NOW ALL I COULD DO IS LOOK AND HELP PHYSICALLY BUT THATS NOT ENOUGH THAT WONT ENSURE THAT I CAN HELP AS FAR AS BUILDING SCHOOLS - HOMES - AND HELPING BUILD AN ACTUAL STRUCTURE FOR HAITI..HAITI IS MY HOME...I WAS BORN THERE AND MY HEART IS THERE..SO FOR ME ITS MY DUTY IT'S MY JOB.. I'M NOT WORRYING ABOUT WHAT ANYONE ELSE IS DOING CAUSE I KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO...AND GOD KNOWS...WORD..JUST HAD TO GET SOME THINGS OFF MY MIND...TO ME I HAVE TO BE A LEADER FOR THE NEW GENERATION...BUILDING OR DESTROYING WHAT ARE U DOING WITH YOUR GIFT OF LIFE....